Worry

Well silly, ridiculous, worrying me was pretty stressed this week... about a number of things including my review. I have to admit, having 3 people laid off the 2 weeks before I got the review didn't help, and neither did the 3 weeks it took to get it scheduled, I didn't feel like I had enough work... but still, why do I worry so much?

Worry is such an interesting thing, the more you think about it, the more it grows. If you just decide to ignore the thought and think of something else it typically goes away! And most of the time if I would just ignore the thought I'd probably be more correct. But no, instead I stewed over it. Yes, I did pray about it - a LOT- but it only calmed my nerves without totally reducing the worry. It helped, but didn't eliminate it completely because I was too worried.:-/

Why do we worry so much? I think I need to post the verse "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself" on my desk wall! Who knows, maybe that will catch my eye the next time my nerves are unhinged!

Oh, about the review - I had it yesterday afternoon. And I honestly have no idea what was wrong with me - I got more work, a promotion, and a raise all at once! So now I'm really the "Marketing Coordinator" and being paid a bit more for it.... God is great - much greater than I'll ever deserve!

Do you really...??

Ok, ok, already - I'll update my blog.;-) I guess life has just seemed busy and stressful and unknown lately (all at once!) so I haven't had the time or desire to post my thoughts out to the world... but this morning I thought of a good rant.;-)

Have you ever noticed that when someone gets a drastic haircut there is no way for them to really know what others think about the haircut? Because if they notice - they have to say it looks nice (or something to that effect), and if they don't notice - they're marked as "impossible" and probably masculine...;-)

I got my hair cut shorter than usual last night and was quite thrilled about it (funny how haircuts make you feel less stressed) until I walked into the door at home and saw a few jaws hit the ground.... they say it looks "really good" but very different (No, my dad hasn't even seen it yet;-)).

And I suppose it is different for me, but somehow my head doesn't surprise me when I see it in the mirror or anything - I guess it's because I've been contemplating it for so long.

Here at work this morning it was pretty amusing as well. I sit at the receptionists desk so it was easy to spot people's reactions as they came in. Especially the "I know something's different, but could I be wrong, what is it, I'll pretend not to see!" look in a number of male co-workers eyes. Then there were the usual, "You got a haircut, it looks great!" "I love your hair." or "Did you just curl your hair different again?" comments... The best that actually got be back to liking the cut again was - "It looks like you've got a hot date this weekend - or courting, whatever you call it." And no, I don't. Besides, men supposedly hate short hair anyway so how would that work?;-) But I guess it was a compliment anyway.:-)

So anyway.... I *think* that like it... and sometimes the weird looks are the best part of the haircut.;-)